Last week I decided to start going back to how I used to eat before I got pregnant. Really, it's just eating as healthy as I can and watching portion sizes. We try to eat everything natural, whole foods(100% whole wheat, etc.), and rarely any sweets. Rarely for me is maybe once a month, if that and if I do have something it's like frozen yogurt or something. Josh isn't so strict on the sweets thing. I just don't like them very much anymore. I also had general goals I wanted to keep, one being walking at least 30 minutes a day, or something like that. I have been eating more salad and fruits. I haven't started counting calories just yet, but that's fine. If I ever feel more hungry after or between meals then I eat fruit. With the exception of Sunday and the doughnut holes and a couple tastes of sherbet Josh will share with me, I've laid off sweets and I feel great. I feel a lot better eating better. I feel clean inside. On Sunday and the in-laws, Josh tempted me with a slice of blueberry muffin leftover from a tray his mom bought for after the blessing and I turned it down successfully. I never feel good after eating stuff like cake, which is what the muffin basically was to me. Another thing I did was at the beginning of last week I wrote my weight on the mirror so I could track it every week. Since last week, my weight is 3.2 pounds lower. I was surprised it was that much, especially since Sunday I definitely did not hold back. Seeing the weight everyday and seeing how much I lose is motivation to not over eat when I want to. I also haven't been walking since Friday I think, for legit reasons. I'm proud of that weight loss especially since it felt like I had plateaued before trying to actually lose weight. I didn't necessarily expect to lose any weight this week, I just wanted to see if making the changes I did would do anything and it did. My tentative goal is to lose a pound a week, but I'm not stressing so much on that number on the scale right now. My main focus is getting into the habit of eating healthy and portion control. Another thing I've done is liking the way I look now and to be honest, I do like how I look. I like the extra skin/fat that bulges over. I think it looks kind of cool. What really helped me be confident in how I look was going back to church a couple weeks ago and being surrounded by other mothers. Even though I felt new all over again, I felt like I had more in common with them. I am a mom and I have a mom body. I just had a baby. That is why my body looks the way it does and I should be proud of it. I felt that being ashamed of the way I looked was indirectly having negative feelings towards having my baby girl. So I love how I look because of why it looks that way. I love Natalia so much and I don't want to ever associate any sort of negative feelings for her.

K enough of that. Natalia has been sleeping SO WELL today and I feel SO MUCH BETTER. She is sleeping in her bed in between feedings and I was able to "sleep in." Part of me wonders if she kept waking yesterday because she was cold or maybe it was her tummy. She hasn't pooped very much the past couple of days. Well, I'm done writing for now. Bye.