Today I went back to "work." It's not really work, it's just what Josh and I call it because it's easier. I survived, we survived. It was a little rough initially, I have to admit, but it didn't feel like something impossible or foreign. It felt comfortable and it felt good walking back up those doorsteps, this time with my baby girl in her car seat and not in my belly. I loved having Natalia with me, able to hold her, see her, and share these experiences with. I am so grateful for this family and that my little family can be a part of it. Natalia slept for a lot of the time, besides when she was eating, which was great because she was awake much of yesterday with tummy issues and whatever else was keeping her up. She is asleep now and staying asleep which is lovely. I love my Natalia. Anyway, blogger informed me that this blog has had 29 page views. I was surprised since I just started this blog yesterday and this blog address(which was my own until the blog was deleted) was unavailable for use a couple months ago when I wanted to try blogging again. I know all those 29 views haven't been from me so it makes me wonder if there are people searching random blogs and reading them. I can hear Natalia making noises in her sleep. She often makes noises in her sleep which I think is so cute. I love holding her and hold her often because I know she will not stay this little forever. She is already growing so fast and I just want to love her as much as I can all the time. I want to cherish every moment, no matter how tired I am. I know I'll never look back and say 'I wish I didn't hold her so much as a newborn." I got the impression from someone recently that Natalia is spoiled for being held too much. Maybe I was wrong and they didn't mean that at all, but my thoughts are: this baby girl just came from heaven. This perfect baby just came from the most perfect place to an imperfect world. I'd want to be held and cuddled all the time if I came to somewhere new and different compared to my previous home and especially as a baby completely dependent on others. I love my baby girl and hope to hold each of my newborns more often than not.